Sunday, June 21, 2009

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I take the test in facebook on What type of disorder do i have? and i came out with this answer : OCD Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

OCD: You have odd obsessions that you cannot seem to control. You may even perform rituals to make you feel better. Counting and continuously obsessing over things happens frequently. The typical OCD sufferer performs tasks (or compulsions) to seek relief from obsession-related anxiety. To others, these tasks may appear odd and unnecessary. But for the sufferer, such tasks can feel critically important, and must be performed in particular ways to ward off dire consequences and to stop the stress from building up.

Well, yes...maybe logically i came from a capricornean astrological team(9th January), which, capricorn has the traits/characteristics of:

1=The spiritual goal is to learn to understand the feelings and needs of other people.
2=Inside anyone who has strong Capricornean influences is a person who worries about security -- physical, social, and emotional. A typical Capricorn cannot bear to be embarrassed in public.
3=Sometimes, Capricorn longs to let go a little and to allow themselves to join in on the fun -- let their toes tap in time with the music. But usually a sense of duty and a terrible fear of looking foolish stop them from acting out their desires.
4=Capricorns are also secret romantics who want a perfect and secure love in their lives.
5=has strong Capricornean influence will tend to take life seriously.
6=She seeks a partner who has a good, secure position in life already. She is more likely to make a bad choice of partner than the male Capricorn, but she will soon recognize her mistake.
7=In business, Capricorn women do not often choose other women as partners.
8=If the partner, in marriage or business, is lost through death or similar misfortune, Capricorns of both sexes find it hard to replace the partner and will tend to draw within themselves.
9=To Capricorn, love is the source of all inspiration. Shy, awkward with the opposite sex, and very much private people, Capricorns are, nevertheless, deeply interested in love and are reputed to be the most capable and loyal of lovers.
Capricorn in love will have many of the characteristics listed below.

Behavior When In Love
The typical Capricorn:
* is slow to make approaches and never flirts for fun
* only says "I love you" when it is meant and does not see any reason to keep repeating it
* may worry about the emotional aspect of the relationship
* must feel financially secure to enjoy love
* is caring, considerate, and committed to the loved one
The typical Capricorn expects:
* to be taken seriously
* to make a long-term committment
* faithfulness
* privacy
* to make a home and a family
* to be admired by the loved one

Thru this arcticle i found, i just understand the nature of me and the logical state of having the OCD now.i know myself quite well,which, capricorn plans her life quite well,with detail spot of aims in future planning.But i came to see that, my point of strength(love) is no longer with me. The rapid loss makes me a bit unhappy with life.Just missing someone who's truely important.

I just want to state that, only by completing it, i'll feel much better and happier as a capricorn, in life,i'll be the most happiest person, thus,could help me upgrading myself.InshaAllah, Allah knows me better. And Allah knows that LOVE is my weakest point.and he put me in such condition to test my belief and my Imaan to Him. I shall take it positively and hope that Allah gives me strength to go through this hardness in the most respectfull manner as a Caliph of Allah.InshaAllah.May Allah be with me. And protect him too.

Please Allah,if this pain to be soooo hard for me,please at least give me the sakinah so that i can stand strong facing it.
And please Allah,show me the correct path that i should go through,because only you know the best for everyone.
If being with him is the best, give me strength to always pray for us.
If being with someone else is better for me, show me the way to forget him.